>                                                                                        >                                                                                        >                                                                                        Definitions of self, as a person, as an artist and as a designer: Who am I? I am complex. I don't readily let people in, my defense mechanisms are well hidden, keeping many from ever really knowing who I am. Most close or not will see I am an artist and a designer, I see myself as such and in all forms and connotations of the words. I am creative, methodical, quick, and a work in progress, as the descriptive words I choose to define who I am change, with two exceptions artist and designer. I am by no means concrete, but in a tepid flux, I use tepid to describe this flux as is not fast but gradual, and at times can be rather snail paced as I can get caught up in my own space, time, beliefs, patterns, theories, these change when I am ready for them too, but like I said I am not concrete. I will be the first to admit I am not the best, fastest, smartest, but I will only surround myself with those who I feel are. I like control, I am most comfortable when I am in control be it my body, life, business, despite the desire for control, I realize control is an illusion no one ever really has it, knowing this at least allows me to be content when I don't have it. I am at my most content and even approach a state of meditation when enthralled in a piece of art, design, or even fixing a computer. I am loyal. I am incredibly shy, but most won't notice as it does not show when I feel I have control. I believe life is a game with rules that I will never figure out, however, these may never need to be figured out as I am bound by no ones rules, I bend even my own. I enjoy a good joke, be it practical, visual, or private. I try not to get wrapped up in seriousness, seriousness should be taken in moderation, however this does not mean I take things too lightly everything should be approached with some maturity. Political correctness blows, I'd much prefer using tact, however if there has been a line drawn I'll be the first to run, jump over and piss on it. My art may not always say something potent, but it will always be emotive, I prefer to create from the sub-conscience and just let the creative juices flow, spew, boil over, thinking can just get in the way of the process. In fact most of what I do I just let flow, however, as I am a perfectionist and am anal retentive I will rework designs, and writings until they lose all meaning. But who AM I, I am me, you know me for how you want to know me, and likely for how I want you to know me.